Enough is enough tiredness, I have decided I am done being tired. I am sick and tired of always being tired. You have controlled my world for 8 years now, since I first ventured into this parenting role. A role I was so not prepared for, a role I wanted but soon overwhelmed me, because it’s so tiring and terrifying the first time around.
Now my children are 8, 5 and almost 3. No more newborns, so why am I so tired all the time?? WHY????
Is it because I never get to sit down, ever? Yes, I am typing this sitting down with my eyes hanging from my head because I’ve had an exhausting day with the kids and this is the only time I have to vent. Is it because there are five million jobs in in the house that need doing, and I am the only person who does them? If I don’t do them they will never get done.
Sometimes I attempt to have a social life. Like last weekend for example; it was my friend’s birthday, six of us went out for dinner, lots of yummy food, lots of laughs and lots of wine. I climbed into bed at 12.30 am delighted with myself for not only managing to stay up way past my bedtime but also for being sociable. This joy was brought to a halt at 6 am with a toddler in my bed kicking and punching me in the face as she enjoyed a sleep-in and I clung on to the edge of my bed as if I was hanging on to the side of cliff face, praying I wouldn’t fall down. I had a feeling it was going to be a long day. And it was a long day because of what? THE TIREDNESS.
Being an exhausted mom, it is too risky to sit down at any point because if you do, your body will IMMEDIATELY want to go to sleep.
To combat this happening you need to stay on your feet until all children are asleep. Only then is it okay to collapse on the couch like you have just returned from war.
And while I am ranting about tiredness, I am so sick of the tiredness conversations. It’s like everyone is having a competition as to who is the most busy and therefore the most tired! Is it a contest? At every school pick-up it’s the same conversation..”I’m so tired”, “No, no I think you will find my life is harder than yours, which means I am way more tired than you.”
No, actually we are all shattered because about half an hour before school pick-up our body and our mind realizes that soon our afternoon is going to be spent refereeing fights, getting endless snacks from the kitchen, helping with homework whilst refereeing more bickering and dealing with a screaming toddler who is disgusted with the episode of Dora the Explorer you have chosen to put on. Another annoying aspect of tiredness is the fact that even if you live like a hermit, making sure you clock up 7/8 hours sleep a night, you actually feel more tired! I went to bed super early for a whole week, I’m talking 9/9.30 pm and by the end of the week, I felt more shattered.
My husband said; “You’re sleeping too much that’s why you are so tired.”
But I think the truth of the matter is, whether you function on four hours sleep a night or eight, a toddler and two school kids are exhausting and demanding. They are also amazing and can be great company when they’re not killing each other. But having three human beings depending on you for absolutely everything all day long, no wonder we are always so fecking tired!!!!!!